AUTHENTICITY. BROKEN HEART

Ramin Entry #37

How do I fix this broken heart?
When gales keep crumbling insistently.

How do I mend this scattered heart?
When storms keep smashing ruthlessly.

How do I restore this shattered heart?
When tides keep pounding relentlessly.

How do I patch this damaged heart?
When hails keep striking indiscriminately.

What does acknowledgment mean?
When discomfort of one’s own skin still dominates.

What does acceptance mean?
When rejection of one’s own self still prevails.

What does honesty mean?
When unmasking misconstrued as threats.

What does authenticity mean?
When living true only judged as disgust.

What happens to kindness?
When hollowness of one’s own self avoided.

What happens to compassion?
When one’s own ego fervently nurtured.

What happens to love?
When hatred overshadows one’s own heart.

What is happening to humanity?
When being a human reduced to mere object.

How long must I hold on?
When hope’s grasp trails off into thin air.

How much more do I forgive?
When its infusion has become my daily breath.

How do I let go?
When the hurt cuts to endless bottom.

How do I heal?
When exclusion by love’s own persists.

How do I keep on living?
When solitude befalls kinship.

How do I live this life?
When what I am scorned and rejected.

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