LOST LOVE – LETTER TO MY WIFE
Every word is tainted with my tears,
tears of joy, tears of sadness
LOST LOVE
I once felt safe with you, in who you are. You saw me without judgement
CHRISTMAS, THE SADDEST DAY OF MY YEAR
For me really, it was about the human connections more than anything else
MAKING SENSE OF ALTERED REALITY
I was contorted and convoluted to falling back into a lifetime of traumatic chapters
GRIEVING THE DEATH OF DREAMS
My dreams died when I made the decision to leave Atma Jaya University
DEATH
Thoughts of death have been gradually intensifying to occupy and accompany me
PIT OF DESPAIR
It’s making my body tremble and shake. The tears won’t stop
AN OLD VISITOR
There was no knock on the door nor was there any prior notice or any cautionary indicators
DEEP EMOTIONAL TURMOIL
I have so much fear of Self, of who I really am, of whom I’ve kept imprisoned
DEEP CHILDHOOD TRAUMAS
It’s a miracle I was able to listen to this entire collection simultaneously and in succession