DEEP EMOTIONAL TURMOIL

Ramin Entry #47

25 – 27 October 2023

At this very moment I almost feel like my high sensitivity trait is a curse…again. 

I’ve been applying and doing everything that I advise and teach my clients, but why haven’t I been able to get a grip to process all these traumatic emotions and feelings? My sensitivity doesn’t allow me to just shake these emotions off, so I’m feeling everything internally and it’s extremely uncomfortable. This is affecting everything that I feel, I believe, and I do.

What is happening to me?

I feel small.
I feel trapped.
I feel incapacitated.
I feel overwhelmed.

I have so much fear of Self, of who I really am, of whom I’ve kept imprisoned.

Am I really who I am?
Which is the real Me?

I’m re-questioning everything all over…again.
I’m clouded by darkness…again.
I’m back in the hole…again.
I’m lost…again.
I feel like a victim…again.
Existential crisis…again.
Looming thoughts of death…again.

This journal chronicles my trauma-healing process and progress. If you’re interested to read in sequence in its entirety, you may jump directly from >here