DOG vs RABBIT

Ramin Entry #4

Some people can’t/don’t understand the significance of my discovery as an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person). They failed to understand this to be my most important self-discovery of my life. To illustrate in simple terms:

I was raised as a dog. Most everyone in my environments wanted me to be a dog, so I learned to convince myself to be a dog to please those everyone. However, in doing so there has always been this unnerving feeling inside I never could describe; it never felt natural for I was constantly battling the juxtaposition of an uphill battle of suffocation, confusions and being torn up inside.

You’re too sensitive, too weird, too perfectionist, too emotional, too moody, too much thinking, too much analyzing, too much crying, too passionate, too obsessed, too slow, too careful…just the “too much” category is already overwhelming as it is, let alone the other emotional and verbal abuses.

I tried to change…I tried…to be a dog…I tried and tried and tried so hard to conform…change as I might, my brain short-circuited and handed me bipolar disorder that led to many suicide attempts.

This HSP video opened my eyes to realize that I am actually a rabbit! Discovering this brought up so much hurt inside that large hard beads of agonizing tears of joy and relief streamed down my face. In an instant I felt peace knowing I am who I am being born with different physiology of DNA, brain structure and sympathetic nervous system. It’s like being freed from a dark dungeon of a prison onto a lush meadow with beautiful flowers, sunshine, and fresh air. I can now breathe and forgive myself. I couldn’t believe throughout my life I was going against myself to deny my very existence of the core SELF that God created me to be.

My hatred and anger issues seem to float away and disappear because all those derogative comments were directed at the dog, not the rabbit, so it’s all irrelevant now. Would anybody around me have recognized this rabbit in my 44 years of existence? How could they have known? It’s a dog-eat-dog world. However, with more empathy and compassion maybe some could have. I’ve now found mySELF. I can stop being a dog and start learning how to be a rabbit, how to live as a rabbit, and be comfortable in my own skin. It’s like I’m being born again! Being a dog was surviving. Now I can start living.

God is so good🙏

Awareness is key, for it is one of the most powerful and grounding tools we can equip ourselves with. It helps us be more self-aware as we develop more humility, compassion, empathy, and love for ourselves and others. Please be kind to yourself and others. God bless